Those days that start out good: you get dressed, and put on your make up, and you’re ready for the day. Then your dad says goodbye and you’re all alone in the house, and there’s no one there to distract you - not even anyone to hate - and you are completely alone with the thoughts. The thoughts that left you alone for a while, to tease you, to make it worse when they returned. The thoughts that say you’d be better of dead, that maybe no one needs you, and you should do something terrible while everyone’s out. And you’re too scared to go outside, because you’re “too fat” or “people will judge you” so you can’t even go for a walk to distract yourself until someone who loves you comes to save you. So you end up cooking and tasting and panicking about calories until, finally, your dad returns, and the house is a mess, and so are you.

Those days that start out good: you get dressed, and put on your make up, and you’re ready for the day. Then your dad says goodbye and you’re all alone in the house, and there’s no one there to distract you - not even anyone to hate - and you are completely alone with the thoughts. The thoughts that left you alone for a while, to tease you, to make it worse when they returned. The thoughts that say you’d be better of dead, that maybe no one needs you, and you should do something terrible while everyone’s out. And you’re too scared to go outside, because you’re “too fat” or “people will judge you” so you can’t even go for a walk to distract yourself until someone who loves you comes to save you. So you end up cooking and tasting and panicking about calories until, finally, your dad returns, and the house is a mess, and so are you.

I MISS YOU NICOLE. NICOLE, I LOVE YOU!

Like/reblog if you feel the same. Let’s send that recovery fairy princess some big love! 

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Anonymous asked: You're so beautiful

You are the beautiful one! And you grammar is perfect. ;)

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Anonymous asked: Someone's looking gorgeous! Guess what? That's YOU! :*

Thank you kindly good sir, verily I blush for shame!

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Anonymous asked: EMMMMAAAAAAAA<3

HONNNNNNNEEEEEEEY! <3 

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Anonymous asked: Please don't apologise for selfies, your face is a delight

You’re too sweet to me anon! 

getmad-govegan:

being vegan is so emotionally draining like i can’t even look at someone drinking a milkshake without wanting to cry this is ridiculous if your ‘food’ makes me emotionally distressed that might be a sign that it’s not good 

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A big cup of tea, my meds, a Disney film and my knitting will fix this. Everything will be ok. :) 

Calm, Emma. You are wanted. You are loved. You are not alone. Do NOT let Facebook get you down. 

Did my make up and hair, scrubbed all over and sprayed with perfume. Actually feeling really good about myself! :) (sorry for all the selfies at the moment!)

Did my make up and hair, scrubbed all over and sprayed with perfume. Actually feeling really good about myself! :) (sorry for all the selfies at the moment!)

I made a scary yummy thing for brekkie, fried food is now my bitch!

I made a scary yummy thing for brekkie, fried food is now my bitch!

It’s terrifying how ignorant some people are.

recovering-please-wait:

Eating disorders are not about ‘just loosing weight’

Self harm isn’t the case of ‘just stop doing it’

Depression isn’t ‘moping around’

OCD isn’t just ‘wanting everything clean’

Suicidal thoughts aren’t ‘selfish and attention seeking’

MENTAL FUCKING ILLNESSES.
DO SOME RESEARCH.
GROW UP.

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k7vin:

lalna:

i wanna date someone and live with them in a shitty apartment but be happy about it because we are happy together and we can decorate it with stupid dorky posters of shit we like and figurines and art and we can cook weird recipes we found on the internet and eat them and watch cartoons even if the food is gross because we made it and we’re perfect

Literally living this rn

We talk about this all the time

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I have so much to tell you guys! But in the meantime, here&#8217;s the scarf I treated myself to today in Paris, because I deserved a treat :)

I have so much to tell you guys! But in the meantime, here’s the scarf I treated myself to today in Paris, because I deserved a treat :)